whats wrong

(bey)
its been a month ever since what happened. i gave birth a month early to a beautiful Brooklyn Giselle carter 

weighing 6lbz and 7oz . i got to take her home yesterday and last night was the first night she slept in her room and she slept all through the night thank god. im still kinda sore so i've been staying home and relaxing in bed. blue has been a good sister and jj is kinda jealous  because he dosent get all the attention no more. but hey i got a new born baby to take car of . anyways she is 4 days old and she dont cry that much as blue and jj did and thats good . right now its just me and Brooklyn and the house . jay is on tour or a whole month and blue and jj is visiting lexii and julez in LA. so imma be alone . well kelly and solange visited me today . but they left .i sat pillows on the side of brooklyn so she wont fall of the bed and i went and got a bottle for her. when i came back i can tell she was about to start crying. i picked her up and fed her . she drank almost half the bottle then i burped her . i put the rest of the bottle on the dresser then i layed her on the bed and took her onesies off  her and she was smiling i tickled her and she laughed i smiled then i picked her up and ran her a bath . when i took her dipper of it was soaked i cleaned her off then i picked her naked self up and look in the drawer for something for her to wear i grabbed a blue onesies . then i gave her a bath. after i got her out i wrapped her in a towel 

after i got her dressed i picked her up and we went down stairs so i can make me something to eat and feed the dog . after i fed the dog i layed brook on a blanket on the floor while i make me something to eat . i was almost done with what i was making and brook started crying i turned the stove off and went to cater to her . i could tell she was sleepy because she didnt have a nap today. i picked layed her back down on the blanket and then went to get my food and i sat it on the table. then i picked her back up and rocked her to sleep . when she fell asleep i put her in her crib then went downstairs to call jay
bey-hey baby
jay-hey, how you and baby girl doing
bey-we good i just put her down for a nap
jay-oh ok
bey-what are you doing
jay-walking back to the hotel 
bey-oh did you have a good show today
jay-yes
bey-oh well thats good
jay-yea you talked to blue and jj
bey-no imma call them after we get done talking 
jay-ok, are you good being there by yourself with babygirl
bey-yea, kelly and solange came over and they said they would come over when ever i need them 
jay-ok 
bey-papi im going to call you back because someone st the door
jay-ok love you beautiful 
bey-love you too
(bey)
when i got off the phone i went to open the door and it was ty loud ass and that was the last thing i needed was for him to wake up my new born baby and his ass no its hard to put a new born baby to sleep. he came in loud as ever 
tyty-wasssssssuuuuuuuuuuuuppppp 
bey-can you lower your voice my baby is sleeping
tyty-oh well .. anyways i like how im pose to be your quote on quote brother but you dont even let me meet my niece 
bey-you wasnt at the hospital ?
tyty-no i was in mexico
bey-nigga stop lyin jay called yo ass and you said you was coming
tyty-oh shit i did hell i must have just didnt want to come
bey-mmhhmm but she sleep right now
tyty-wake her ass up
bey-umm no she havent slept all day today
tyty-mmhhmm imma go wake her ass up
(bey)
ty ass went upstairs i tried to stop him but by the time i got up there he had already woke her up . she was crying but when she saw me she calmed down and let ty hold her. i got her and we went downstairs. we sat on the couch and i gave her back to ty. and i called and checked on blue and jj and they were fine. after that me and ty watched tv and talked.
tyty-damn she is beautiful 
bey-just like her mommy
tyty-sike more like her uncle 
bey-hmmmm. if you say so
tyty-bitch i know so
bey-why are you here anyways 
tyty-because i wanted to me here *brook starts crying* here taker her i dont do the crying
bey-*grabs brook* you are so trifflin 
tyty-i guess so ...oh yeah i meant to tell you about angie ass
bey-oh lord hold on let me go make her a bottle so she can stop crying
tyty-yes you do that 
bey-*makes a bottle and feed it to brook*ok go head
tyty-you know i like dick right?
bey-yes
tyty-ok coo' so last night me and angie went to the club and we got drunk then we went to my house and smoked .. and then that bitch tried to fuck me
bey-*bust of laughing and brook starts crying* you cant be serious *rocking brook*
tyty-but i am 
bey-wow angie can not handle her liquor 
tyty-i know *looks at his watch*oh damn i gotta go bye
bey-bye
(bey)
im really thinking about retiring from the industry and being a stay at home mom while jay works . dont get me work i love my job and my fans its just that i have 3 kids to take care of now so i think its the right time and besides i've been doing this for more then 10 years. anywho i put brook down for a nap this time a real one with out no one waking her up . i hoped in the shower when she fell asleep . after i got out i put a towel around me and went to check on brook and she was still sleep. i changed into some black leggings and and black t-shirt and some flats im not ready to start wearing my heels yet . i went downstairs and cleaned up the living room because kelly was coming to stay the night . after i got done i layed on the couch and i was about to go to sleep untill brook started crying .i got up and went to get her and then went back downstairs and saw kelly sitting on the couch .
bey-wtf..!! how did you get in
kelly-you gave me a key duh 
bey-oh yeah
kelly-anywho lemme see my niece 
bey-you gonna change her
kelly-sure 
bey-kiara 
kelly-with trey..
bey-oh
(kelly)
i changed her and i swear she shit like a damn 45 year old man . anywho after i got done changing her i went back downstairs with bey and her ass was sleep . so i decided to go to the store because i wanted something that i know her ass did not have. i wrapped brook up and put her in the car seat in the car i locked the doors to the house and left. when i cam back bey was crying so hard..

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